my freind who ive referred to as one legged ray died a couple of days ago. ie known him since the 4rth grade. he was one of those people who had all kind of grief. he became one legged after he got an offer to go fight fire in the mountain. [he was 53 at the time. so he took all his accrued leave from his pretty well paying trucking job, and went out to fight fires. got a blister and did not care for it properly. it got infected, and he became one legged ray. then his son was killed a year ago in a car accident. ray had been falling apart for a long time. his sons death was brutal on him.. so his heart attack and death was to me at least,, a release from many years of suffering, and self abuse with drugs, and alcohol. he was a pain in the azz sometimes,, but he was also a lifelong freind..